Today was a lil interesting..
I had to work at 7am.. but after what happened last night, i wasn't able to sleep until 3am.. and had set the alarm to 6am.
When i opened my eyes.. it was 8:45am.. hmm.. what happened to the alarm? I guess i slept over it while it kept ringing.. i seriously did not hear it. So after getting to work 2 hours late - i'm sure the managers wrote me up for being late again.. (this is my 3rd time i've been late this week). I didn't have a good excuse - so i just told them i couldn't get up.
However, the managers weren't too upset because we passed our Secret Shopper test this month. Secret shopper is when a BR Corporate employee comes to our store and shops secretly while checking out all the expects of our store.
How the clothes are folded..
Fitting room customer service
Cashiers friendliness
And a few other things.. Our store didn't pass last month.. so we were pretty desperate to pass this month. So thankfully my managers had something to keep their minds off me.. so i didn't get yelled at too much. Time went by pretty fast today.. worked 7 hours and was busy doing a lot of things.
I'ts 7:20 right now.. i called Pae an hour ago, but i think his phone was off - there was no ring. I wanted to go eat some dinner with him and chill. I guess we can do that tomorrow.
Simon called me just now - and wants to go work out.. i guess that's where i'm going now.. write more when i get back.
Monday, September 16, 2002
First Argument
First time for everything..
Where to begin..
Most people know that my best friend is Pae here in LA.. we've been the closest of friends since 8th grade. I have so much to say - yet everything is jumbled up in my mind that it's hard to organize everything. I feel however, that since this is my personal diary and close to nobody comes to this site - i should write my thoughts here to log how i felt during 9/15/02.
Well to first start out.. i just have this weird gut feeling right now that's been bothering for the past few hours. I feel as if i'm going to explode if i don't say anything or write about it at least - to get it off my chest. This was the first time Pae and I got into an intense argument.. mostly because of misunderstading and miscommunication. We haven't been able to talk much about anything lately - partly because of my job, partly because of Pae's not wanting to talk about it, and partly because of the guests who came over my house.
Apparently, there has been a lot of things that has been bothering Pae these past few days, but i didn't know what they were because he wouldn't tell me. Our argument happened after i came back home with Nancy after buying some sodas to go with our pizza tonite. I noticed Elis was leaving the house all ready to go home - and Pae was putting his backpack on to leave aswell. This put me in a frustrating position because I wasn't sure if it was something i did, that was making them leave w/o even having a slice of pizza with Nancy and I or having a drink. Also with the long day i had at work - i wasn't in the clearest mind format which caused me to raise my voice and ask why they were leaving. I had never raised my voice in front of my friends before in the tone that i said it in.. and so all 3 of them were sorta suprised.. I quickly regretted doing it though after i thought about it for a second. So after pulling myself together, i asked more politely what was going on, and why they wanted to leave. After getting no decent answer, Pae got upset and took off outside wanting to go home, while Nancy chased after him to cool him down.
Elis and I talked inside the house for a bit about what happened.. and i soon followed by going outside to apologize. I really expected the conversation with pae to be:
"Yo dude, sorry for raising my voice, let's talk this out. What's bothering you? Make me understand" - me
"It's coo dude, don't worry about it. It's not a big deal - i'm just leaving cuz i gotta do homework" - pae
"I have been upset lately cuz i've had these things on my mind... ... ... " - pae
or something within those lines.. but all i got was:
"I don't wanna talk about it right now" - pae
After about 30 minutes of trying to convince him to come back inside and talk about it .. i figured it would be better to let him go home and cool off. We talked on AIM a few minutes ago - and straighted a lot of things out.. but i figure we'll settle back when we chill together tomorrow or something.
I'm still not 100% certain of everything that has been bothering Pae - because he hasn't been very specific nor has he talked about each thing in detail to me nor has he told me how all of those things are bothering him. But i know there are more things that are bothering him. The thing that gets me the most, is that i think he got the feeling i didn't appreciate the things he does for me.. or that i got used to him taking care of me that i don't thank him anymore. But seriously, i am grateful, thankful, and awed of his dedication towards our friendship. I know i would probably be struggling more in LA if it wasn't for him.. i probably dont' show that as much as i would like - but i always thought he would never second guess my feelings for that sort of thing.
But who am i to say what he should or should not do.. were all imperfect humans who make mistakes, such as me raising my voice today, ..
I also dislike it when people break up the mood for their own personal reasons. Like if you go out with a bunch of friends, and you have a grumpy face all day and stay quiet in the corner by yourself and not interact because of your personal problems. I'm the type of person that tries not to break up the mood for my own personal reasons.. why make other people miserable worrying about me, when by me just changing my attitude for that day - i could let everyone have a good time while making myself presentable to everyone.
Getting pissed easily also sucks. My mom used to call me a girl cuz i got pissed easily when i was little - ever since i try to keep most of my anger inside, and eat my pride. Either apologize first, or try to calm down the circumstances to get along. Isn't that how the world goes round?
Im pretty sure that this shouldn't impact our relationship.. friends do get into arguments and have disputes.. but it was weird doing it for the first time. I guess we lived our lives differen't for quite some time during the past 6 year while we were living so far apart that probably sparked it after hanging out closely again. I know this story one pretty one sided, but i'm just expressing what i felt yesterday..
Where to begin..
Most people know that my best friend is Pae here in LA.. we've been the closest of friends since 8th grade. I have so much to say - yet everything is jumbled up in my mind that it's hard to organize everything. I feel however, that since this is my personal diary and close to nobody comes to this site - i should write my thoughts here to log how i felt during 9/15/02.
Well to first start out.. i just have this weird gut feeling right now that's been bothering for the past few hours. I feel as if i'm going to explode if i don't say anything or write about it at least - to get it off my chest. This was the first time Pae and I got into an intense argument.. mostly because of misunderstading and miscommunication. We haven't been able to talk much about anything lately - partly because of my job, partly because of Pae's not wanting to talk about it, and partly because of the guests who came over my house.
Apparently, there has been a lot of things that has been bothering Pae these past few days, but i didn't know what they were because he wouldn't tell me. Our argument happened after i came back home with Nancy after buying some sodas to go with our pizza tonite. I noticed Elis was leaving the house all ready to go home - and Pae was putting his backpack on to leave aswell. This put me in a frustrating position because I wasn't sure if it was something i did, that was making them leave w/o even having a slice of pizza with Nancy and I or having a drink. Also with the long day i had at work - i wasn't in the clearest mind format which caused me to raise my voice and ask why they were leaving. I had never raised my voice in front of my friends before in the tone that i said it in.. and so all 3 of them were sorta suprised.. I quickly regretted doing it though after i thought about it for a second. So after pulling myself together, i asked more politely what was going on, and why they wanted to leave. After getting no decent answer, Pae got upset and took off outside wanting to go home, while Nancy chased after him to cool him down.
Elis and I talked inside the house for a bit about what happened.. and i soon followed by going outside to apologize. I really expected the conversation with pae to be:
"Yo dude, sorry for raising my voice, let's talk this out. What's bothering you? Make me understand" - me
"It's coo dude, don't worry about it. It's not a big deal - i'm just leaving cuz i gotta do homework" - pae
"I have been upset lately cuz i've had these things on my mind... ... ... " - pae
or something within those lines.. but all i got was:
"I don't wanna talk about it right now" - pae
After about 30 minutes of trying to convince him to come back inside and talk about it .. i figured it would be better to let him go home and cool off. We talked on AIM a few minutes ago - and straighted a lot of things out.. but i figure we'll settle back when we chill together tomorrow or something.
I'm still not 100% certain of everything that has been bothering Pae - because he hasn't been very specific nor has he talked about each thing in detail to me nor has he told me how all of those things are bothering him. But i know there are more things that are bothering him. The thing that gets me the most, is that i think he got the feeling i didn't appreciate the things he does for me.. or that i got used to him taking care of me that i don't thank him anymore. But seriously, i am grateful, thankful, and awed of his dedication towards our friendship. I know i would probably be struggling more in LA if it wasn't for him.. i probably dont' show that as much as i would like - but i always thought he would never second guess my feelings for that sort of thing.
But who am i to say what he should or should not do.. were all imperfect humans who make mistakes, such as me raising my voice today, ..
I also dislike it when people break up the mood for their own personal reasons. Like if you go out with a bunch of friends, and you have a grumpy face all day and stay quiet in the corner by yourself and not interact because of your personal problems. I'm the type of person that tries not to break up the mood for my own personal reasons.. why make other people miserable worrying about me, when by me just changing my attitude for that day - i could let everyone have a good time while making myself presentable to everyone.
Getting pissed easily also sucks. My mom used to call me a girl cuz i got pissed easily when i was little - ever since i try to keep most of my anger inside, and eat my pride. Either apologize first, or try to calm down the circumstances to get along. Isn't that how the world goes round?
Im pretty sure that this shouldn't impact our relationship.. friends do get into arguments and have disputes.. but it was weird doing it for the first time. I guess we lived our lives differen't for quite some time during the past 6 year while we were living so far apart that probably sparked it after hanging out closely again. I know this story one pretty one sided, but i'm just expressing what i felt yesterday..
Yong and Elis Visit
On thursday, Yong and Elis came over to visit Pae and I. Yong came down to visit on his way to UCSD.. and Elis just came over to visit us and Cindy Hyun from Cuperino Jr. High. I was at work most of the time when they came down which was pretty upsetting.. but at this point at work - that is what i have to do. I have been getting less than 10 hours of work every week, and so i have been complaining about it. So this week - the managers kept offering me hours to make up for it.. and if i rejected the offers what do you think would have happened?
"Dang, he complained about hours, yet he rejects our offers"... that is the last thing i needed right now. So while i worked that night until 10pm, they kicked it at Gogo Juice and at my place until i got home. We then, left to HQ's where we ordered some food and beer. Pae left a bit early because he had to go home before 12. We soon followed by leaving 30 minutes later.
The next day, which was a friday - i didn't have to work, so we chilled at my house until 2pm cuz the weather was really hot. Around 3pm, we went over to CSULB and showed my friends the campus, and later went to the beach in Redondo Beach. I called Nancy over, and we went to Semiro Gumi to eat Japanese sty-o ramen. We then went back to my crib and watched movies and TV.. until Simon called me up and we hit LA for a night in KTown. We got home pretty late, and everyone just went to bed.
On Saturday, i had to go to work around 11am - and Pae came over to take Elis and Yong out for the day. They went to the beach - and hung out all day having fun. I soon met up with them around 8pm, and we went to NEXT in Torrance with a few other friends. We got back home around 2am and didn't go to sleep for another few hours.
Sunday came, and i had to go to work at 8am - doh! - and had to work for another 6 hours. Yong went home around 11:30am to UCSD and I met up with everyone after work at my house. We ordered some pizza, and Elis went home soon after. Pae also went home because of homework. Nancy also left due to her curfew at 10:00pm.
Now i'm writing this blog and i should be sleeping because i have work at 7am. arg.. i thought 8am was early. Dang it! Haven't been able to update the blog or do much of anything productive the past 4 days because i had guests at my house all day.
"Dang, he complained about hours, yet he rejects our offers"... that is the last thing i needed right now. So while i worked that night until 10pm, they kicked it at Gogo Juice and at my place until i got home. We then, left to HQ's where we ordered some food and beer. Pae left a bit early because he had to go home before 12. We soon followed by leaving 30 minutes later.
The next day, which was a friday - i didn't have to work, so we chilled at my house until 2pm cuz the weather was really hot. Around 3pm, we went over to CSULB and showed my friends the campus, and later went to the beach in Redondo Beach. I called Nancy over, and we went to Semiro Gumi to eat Japanese sty-o ramen. We then went back to my crib and watched movies and TV.. until Simon called me up and we hit LA for a night in KTown. We got home pretty late, and everyone just went to bed.
On Saturday, i had to go to work around 11am - and Pae came over to take Elis and Yong out for the day. They went to the beach - and hung out all day having fun. I soon met up with them around 8pm, and we went to NEXT in Torrance with a few other friends. We got back home around 2am and didn't go to sleep for another few hours.
Sunday came, and i had to go to work at 8am - doh! - and had to work for another 6 hours. Yong went home around 11:30am to UCSD and I met up with everyone after work at my house. We ordered some pizza, and Elis went home soon after. Pae also went home because of homework. Nancy also left due to her curfew at 10:00pm.
Now i'm writing this blog and i should be sleeping because i have work at 7am. arg.. i thought 8am was early. Dang it! Haven't been able to update the blog or do much of anything productive the past 4 days because i had guests at my house all day.
Thursday, September 12, 2002
Why am I always Late?
It's been a slow day so far, i swear i set the alarm clock at 9am.. but somehow woke up at 9:45am. Hmm.. i must be sleep walking or something.
I got to school around 10:15am, and thankfully there was a few parking spots left. My first class was a total bore, the teacher was blabbering about the Terrorists and the 911 incident for a whole hour. I think i fell asleep when he started talking about Iraq and Saddam Hussein.. the bad part was that i was sitting in the front row. Couldn't help it though - because i was freakin tired from sleepin at 3am trying to get Bronx's Junkyard back in business.
Nothing much else going on.. i have to work at 5pm, and maybe go to the market to buy some more ramen, and get a haircut?
Yong and Elis are coming over today from North Cal.. i'm a little worried of how good of a host i can be for 2 people. Showing them around will also be tough since i just moved here too. Who knows...
I got to school around 10:15am, and thankfully there was a few parking spots left. My first class was a total bore, the teacher was blabbering about the Terrorists and the 911 incident for a whole hour. I think i fell asleep when he started talking about Iraq and Saddam Hussein.. the bad part was that i was sitting in the front row. Couldn't help it though - because i was freakin tired from sleepin at 3am trying to get Bronx's Junkyard back in business.
Nothing much else going on.. i have to work at 5pm, and maybe go to the market to buy some more ramen, and get a haircut?
Yong and Elis are coming over today from North Cal.. i'm a little worried of how good of a host i can be for 2 people. Showing them around will also be tough since i just moved here too. Who knows...
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
I have Internet! I can cook Rice!
Holy Gigazoids! I got my DSL! Finally.. after almost 3 weeks it's here! I cant describe the emotion i'm feeling right now.. i'm excited yet have this empty feeling in my gut. I waited so long for internet that it got me very anxious, but after i got online, realized there was nothing to do. hmm.. how weird. Maybe this feeling will change soon..
Last night wasn't very productive, went to jib heh with my auntie, came back home around 10:30pm. Pae was supposed to call me back - but he never did.. i wonder what happened to that boy. So i just watched Harry Potter.. interesting movie to say the least. Now i understand why so many people went out to buy the book after watching the movie. The film was pretty good.. i enjoyed it.
Kate and Leopold was another interesting movie.. maybe because i always have dreams of time travel. There were many parts which i would have directed differently.. but overall it was an okay romantic/comedy movie.. it won't be a waste of money.
It's 9:30am.. the UPS guy came at freakin 8:30am.. the little paper told me he would come around 10am. Now i'm wide awake.. damn it.
My sister was supposed to send me my bank checks.. but she forgot.. hopefully she sent them recently.. i'm running low and need to pay my bills.
OOhh yeah.. i cooked rice for the first time yesterday.. and damn i can cook RICE! It was sooo good that i didn't need any Ban Chan.. i just at the rice! I also beat Return to Castle Wolfenstein for the second time yesterday because i was so bored. And also played starcraft against 7 computers on big game hunters.
I need a haircut.. but don't know any decent hair stylists around here. I guess i'll wait.
Last night wasn't very productive, went to jib heh with my auntie, came back home around 10:30pm. Pae was supposed to call me back - but he never did.. i wonder what happened to that boy. So i just watched Harry Potter.. interesting movie to say the least. Now i understand why so many people went out to buy the book after watching the movie. The film was pretty good.. i enjoyed it.
Kate and Leopold was another interesting movie.. maybe because i always have dreams of time travel. There were many parts which i would have directed differently.. but overall it was an okay romantic/comedy movie.. it won't be a waste of money.
It's 9:30am.. the UPS guy came at freakin 8:30am.. the little paper told me he would come around 10am. Now i'm wide awake.. damn it.
My sister was supposed to send me my bank checks.. but she forgot.. hopefully she sent them recently.. i'm running low and need to pay my bills.
OOhh yeah.. i cooked rice for the first time yesterday.. and damn i can cook RICE! It was sooo good that i didn't need any Ban Chan.. i just at the rice! I also beat Return to Castle Wolfenstein for the second time yesterday because i was so bored. And also played starcraft against 7 computers on big game hunters.
I need a haircut.. but don't know any decent hair stylists around here. I guess i'll wait.
Tuesday, September 10, 2002
Is Internet Worth it?
I used to think that internet was a huge part of my life.. and yet during the past month that i didn't have a constant internet connection i dealt with it and life went on. I did have urges to check e-mail and what not - but i realized that there wasn't much that i did when i was online other than checking e-mail and doing useless things.
So the question comes to mind, is $50/month worth going on the internet? Maybe my mind will change once i get my DSL, but i actually don't even miss chatting online anymore. Maybe because i have a real life to worry about and not hide behind a computer screen.
I'm at the PC Lab at school at the moment, and it's pretty coo here, comfortable chair - fast computer - fast connection - and the whole building is air conditioned. I'm sure i'll be hanging around here more often.
What did i do yesterday.. hmm.. i did my laundry all by myself for the first time - and i'm proud to say that i didn't do a bad job. The clothes came out in one piece so i'm pretty proud of myself.
I paid my phone bill, and called Cingular to change my phone number. They also charged me $20 for a phone upgrade. The sucky thing about that is, i lost my phone, so the guy at the store told me i could get a new free phone if I signed a 2 year contract with them again (my old contract was over).. so i'm like.. okay. So i thought taht was the end of everything, but Noooo.. cingular has to charge me $20 bucks for upgrading my phone!.. Can we all say SCAM! RIP OFF! FALSE ADVERTIZEMENT! LYING TO THE CUSTOMER! I should have that guy at the Cingular store fired.. what an asshole. Trying to get his commission by lying to me. The only thing the lady on the phoen could say was, "i'm sorry sir".. i'm like.. i know it's not your fault, but your company are a bunch of pricks.
After all that - i had to go to work and came back around 10pm. Called Pae, met him and Christina at Go go juice and talked for an hour. Then i went across the street to Blockbuster and rented, Harry Potter, and that other movie with Meg Ryan and the guy from 18th Century?.. i guess i'll watch those today.
It was nice seeing Christina again, she's the type of person that needs to grow on you. When i first met her, i didn't think much of it - and thought of it as just a friend's friend, but now i get the urge of being a really good friend. I also think she's getting used to my sarcastic jokes, cuz she doesn't take them so seriously anymore (good!).
She also showed me a picture of her with her bf, when she had long hair - and DAMN.. she looked like a movie star. I must admit, that she does look a lot better now than she did 2 years ago. I used to think she had a resemblance of Chow Yun Fat in one of her studio pictures.. but i'm re-thinking that comment. Maybe i'll take a picture of her sometime and post it for a few hours here.
She has a bf though, so no dirty thoughts!.. hmm well i know Bob would say, "Doesn't mean you can't score just cuz there's a goalie".. haha.
For some odd reason though, last night at Gogo Juice, i was interestingly attracted to Christina.. i liked the way she dressed and acted.. and her hair was cute nevertheless. I wonder what she thinks of me......
Today, i woke up at 8:30am cuz of a phone call from my Uncle who lives in Glendale towards the Valley. He was complaining how i didnt' call him after i moved, but i didn't have his number. Come to think of it - i still dont' have his number!.. doh. He wanted to each dinner with me sometime.. so now it's 3 people who i need to make plans with soon.. Dang, i don't wanna drive 2 hours up there though!
I fell back asleep after the phone call and woke up again around 9:45am.. and realized i was going to find no parking at school. Evidently, when i got to school - there seriously wasn't any parking. So i had to park in the residential street which has a 2 hour parking limit. So after my first class, i had to run to my car, re-park it and then go back to class. THis took about 30 minutes.. that's 30 minutes of WALKING and RUNNING! Obviously i was like to my second class and the teacher wasn't very pleased.
It's kinda weird today, because i saw more than 2 cute girls at school.. haven't seen so many in one day here. I also saw Mikey from Turbo in LA the other day.. and that guy has a HUGE head. I mean.. it's HUGE.. the size of a watermelon! Not very good looking eather.. now i know why he always wears a hat/sunglasses. AND why he got dumped by Kim Jon Gook.
Damn.. i'm running out of time, i gotta go to my car, because my 2 hours is almost up again. I'll write more later.. this PC room will probably be my 3rd home.
Chau!
So the question comes to mind, is $50/month worth going on the internet? Maybe my mind will change once i get my DSL, but i actually don't even miss chatting online anymore. Maybe because i have a real life to worry about and not hide behind a computer screen.
I'm at the PC Lab at school at the moment, and it's pretty coo here, comfortable chair - fast computer - fast connection - and the whole building is air conditioned. I'm sure i'll be hanging around here more often.
What did i do yesterday.. hmm.. i did my laundry all by myself for the first time - and i'm proud to say that i didn't do a bad job. The clothes came out in one piece so i'm pretty proud of myself.
I paid my phone bill, and called Cingular to change my phone number. They also charged me $20 for a phone upgrade. The sucky thing about that is, i lost my phone, so the guy at the store told me i could get a new free phone if I signed a 2 year contract with them again (my old contract was over).. so i'm like.. okay. So i thought taht was the end of everything, but Noooo.. cingular has to charge me $20 bucks for upgrading my phone!.. Can we all say SCAM! RIP OFF! FALSE ADVERTIZEMENT! LYING TO THE CUSTOMER! I should have that guy at the Cingular store fired.. what an asshole. Trying to get his commission by lying to me. The only thing the lady on the phoen could say was, "i'm sorry sir".. i'm like.. i know it's not your fault, but your company are a bunch of pricks.
After all that - i had to go to work and came back around 10pm. Called Pae, met him and Christina at Go go juice and talked for an hour. Then i went across the street to Blockbuster and rented, Harry Potter, and that other movie with Meg Ryan and the guy from 18th Century?.. i guess i'll watch those today.
It was nice seeing Christina again, she's the type of person that needs to grow on you. When i first met her, i didn't think much of it - and thought of it as just a friend's friend, but now i get the urge of being a really good friend. I also think she's getting used to my sarcastic jokes, cuz she doesn't take them so seriously anymore (good!).
She also showed me a picture of her with her bf, when she had long hair - and DAMN.. she looked like a movie star. I must admit, that she does look a lot better now than she did 2 years ago. I used to think she had a resemblance of Chow Yun Fat in one of her studio pictures.. but i'm re-thinking that comment. Maybe i'll take a picture of her sometime and post it for a few hours here.
She has a bf though, so no dirty thoughts!.. hmm well i know Bob would say, "Doesn't mean you can't score just cuz there's a goalie".. haha.
For some odd reason though, last night at Gogo Juice, i was interestingly attracted to Christina.. i liked the way she dressed and acted.. and her hair was cute nevertheless. I wonder what she thinks of me......
Today, i woke up at 8:30am cuz of a phone call from my Uncle who lives in Glendale towards the Valley. He was complaining how i didnt' call him after i moved, but i didn't have his number. Come to think of it - i still dont' have his number!.. doh. He wanted to each dinner with me sometime.. so now it's 3 people who i need to make plans with soon.. Dang, i don't wanna drive 2 hours up there though!
I fell back asleep after the phone call and woke up again around 9:45am.. and realized i was going to find no parking at school. Evidently, when i got to school - there seriously wasn't any parking. So i had to park in the residential street which has a 2 hour parking limit. So after my first class, i had to run to my car, re-park it and then go back to class. THis took about 30 minutes.. that's 30 minutes of WALKING and RUNNING! Obviously i was like to my second class and the teacher wasn't very pleased.
It's kinda weird today, because i saw more than 2 cute girls at school.. haven't seen so many in one day here. I also saw Mikey from Turbo in LA the other day.. and that guy has a HUGE head. I mean.. it's HUGE.. the size of a watermelon! Not very good looking eather.. now i know why he always wears a hat/sunglasses. AND why he got dumped by Kim Jon Gook.
Damn.. i'm running out of time, i gotta go to my car, because my 2 hours is almost up again. I'll write more later.. this PC room will probably be my 3rd home.
Chau!
Sunday, September 08, 2002
Cal State Long Beach
Hmm.. where to start.
I'm currently at a PC bang checking e-mail (i haven't checked in 4 days now), and updating this blog because i know so many ppl read it. Yah rite. I actually do this for myself, since you never know if your going to get amnesia and not remember about your past life. If that ever happens, i'll have something to read about and know more about how i lived my life in the past.
My DSL is still not here yet, i have been having a few problems with Verizon DSL because of my new phone line.
1. They can't test the phone line's compatability with DSL until it's been working for 5 business days - so that took a week.
2. It takes 5 business days for them to ship the modem.
So overall, it's going to take another freakin week to get myself on the internet from home. It's been about 2.1 weeks since i've been waiting.. i hate this game.
I'm at the PC bang, inside the "quiet room" but it's all a lie, because there are these rude ppl who keep talking on the cell phone. Shoot, i should freakin sing really loud and out voice them. HAHA (evil smile).
I got this new gel from a salon because "American Crew" gel hasn't been working as good these days. After testing out the gel that Pae has been using (Paul Mitchel sculpting gel) i just totally digged it. I can do so many things with my hair now. It also has a cool little pump so i can't have to open the lid everytime anymore.
I found a few roaches in my apartment when i first moved in, so i set little poisoned baits for them. I am pretty paranoid about bugs, like spiders, silverfish and roaches - i guess you can call it a phobia. For a while though, they were my only friends in the house, and in a way they helped me settle into my new studio. I actually wasn't sure what kind of roaches they were because at first i was told they were silver-fish; so i went on the net and found everything i could about silverfish.. but i was still skeptical about that because the insects weren't silver. bleh. So after a few hours of more research, i found out they were German Roaches. The hardest freakin house pests to kill from what i heard. But not too many worries anymore because i have so many tools to kill these little monsters..
The baits i setup for them should work pretty good, because roaches aren't like ants and they don't share food, they just eat them - go back home and die. And after they die, other roaches eat the dead ones - so in turn, they eat the poisoned roach and they die too.. and causes a domino effect. I haven't seen any roaches in my place for about a week now.. sweet! Knock on wood though..
Actually, they haven't bothered me too much because they only hang around the bathroom and near the sink.. they don't go near the bed, or even come out anymore (if they even exist) cuz they are scared of how i will torture them.
I have been at this PC bang for an hour now.. it's funny how time flies when you got so much to do.
Oh yes.. my cell phone bill came, and apparently i had to pay a One time fee of $20.. err.. WTF! It doesn't say what it's for.. and they didn't even tell me about it. Now i have to call 611 this Monday to clarify what the charge was for. But this is life huh? I will also be changing my number to a (562) area code on Monday.. so for the ppl who i have on my address book, i'll call you and let you know about my number change.
Oh yes, i just want to remind myself that if anyone asks me for a quote i will tell them.
"Life isn't complicated (hard), it's the people who make it complicated (hard)"
The quote itself sounds pretty simple, but it's pretty steep if you think about it for a while. If you were the only one alive right now, i'm pretty freakin sure life would be simple because you know nothing better.. you just live on as you please and do whatever you want. PG&E, Phone company, cell phone company, the government, school, family, and sometimes friends is what makes our lives so complex and unique and at the same time gives us stress.
Work has been a little tough.. i got my paycheck yesterday and it wasn't much because they aren't giving me enough hours. However, it's nice to know that the Cerritos BR was able to match my pay rate from Valley Fair.. wooho. This week starting on 9/8 i was only scheduled for 5 hours.. wth! I'm seriously considering a second job at the moment. From what i'm estimating right now, my monthly living expenses will be +/- $1000 including rent/gas/food etc. I would like to ask my parents for help, but they are pretty low on they cash flow because they just bought a house and the morgage sucks. I guess this is what i get for trying to live on my own.
I miss my sister, and pusha. I don't miss my father as much though.. probably because we were never that close. I rarely ever talk to him since i'm usually in my room, and his in his room, and i always ate outside. He doesn't talk to me much either.. i guess he doesn't like to lecture me like my mom. I still admire and respect him though, his one incredible man. As for my mom, i have been having mix emotions about it. I sorta miss her.. but at the same time i don't. Kinda complicated because part of the reason i moved out was to help her let go of me from her grasp. She's a bit of a control freak, and likes to be the boss of everything, and when things don't go her way it's hard for her.
Whenever i didn't do something she tells me to do, it would just give her stress - and i never liked seeing my mother sad, yet i wanted to live my life as i wanted to. I was tired of her nagging at me, and was tired of just seeing her pissed off for the dumbest reasons. Now that i'm not there, hopefully she can stop seeing all the little mistakes that i make and worry about them.
I also just found out that my mom didn't go to church during college.. something i never knew.. my aunt told me my mom is over protective because she doesn't want me to make the same mistakes she did as she was growing up - but isn't that what we all hear from our peers? However, my personality tells me that i have to venture out into this wicked life myself and learn from my own mistakes. How would I ever know what is wrong/right until I occured them for myself? If your mom told you that eating straberries was bad, and you believed her and never tried it.. wouldn't you regret it later in life since you would never know how a straberry tasted like? Yet if the straberry was something that was going to kill you later in life, you would still regret it - hence it goes both ways.
I'd just rather know and die, rather than not knowing at all.
Bronx's Junkyard is semi-up right now, the forums are in the testing phase. I'm pretty happy that I have Jet as a friend, because his been taking care of the site while i don't have internet. If it wasn't for him, the site would probably still be down. Even though, I think his progress for the forums, and other things are a bit slow - it's good to know his working hard in his free time.
I went to Le Prive the other nite.. it was pretty wack. There were so many ppl there that i only had 3 shots of crown and some Hite. Dancing sober sucks.
I have been hanging out with Simon a bit since he came back from Argentina, and that foo just seems to suprise me everyday with something new. His a really coo guy, and seems to be so cool-headed in every situation. He likes being the center of attention though - which seems to work both ways for me.
Gosh, my mind is blank right now, i can't think of what i've done in the past week. This is so sad.. i wish i could blog everyday so i can freakin remember.
I did get a few new things for my studio. A place to push the dishes and utensils, bottles for Soy Sauce and Oil.. and a little table where i can eat.
OH yea, and Pae bought me a fan as a House warming gift - thanks to him, i can sleep at night.
They are having a little carnival in front of my apartment which seems to be really cool - but i have nobody to go with.. what a bummer. Pae and I were supposed to go tonite, but they closed around 10pm, and Pae arrived at my place around 9:45pm.. ugh. And i'm pretty sure the carnival will be leaving tomorrow.. maybe i'll get lucky and they won't leave! yea rite.
Wow, this blog is getting pretty long. I have been writing on it for the past 45 minutes.
OH wait.. i forgot about the biggest thing last week. SCHOOL!
I finally went to my classes at CSULB.. and everything is pretty exciting.
1. They have a Student Union Center which has an Arcade, Bowling, Billards, and a place to just sit and watch TV. Actually there are a lot more things to do in campus - with a beauty salon and a swimming pool, computer lab, music room, and tons of places to just sit back and chill. But i haven't done half of those things yet.
2. My classes are pretty dumb and boring. My first class, i have a dumb teacher who mumbles so much.. "uh uh uh".. "ah ah ah".. geez.. and his supposed to get his masters for speech and communications? Apparently his also the Assistant Head of the Forensics League at CSULB.. i bet our school sucks at Speech & Debate cuz of him.
My second class is a joke aswell. It's a History of Oral Interpersonal Communication - and we learn about how the greeks, romans, etc. communicated.
The teacher keeps going off about how they aren't speakers, rather artists. Geezz.. i'm sure his one of those fags who thinks life is beautiful. His lectures suck too - remember the guy for the Clear Eyes commercial? - Sounds EXACTLY like him. I can't deal with the mono tone voice. So many kiss asses in my class too - whenever he cracks a joke (when it's not even funny) ppl laugh. Me, being the idiot that i am, laugh along so that i can get an "A". HAHA.
3. Parking is a bitch. Seriously, i have to go to school around 10am just so that i can find a decent spot. THen i have to chill for an hour in campus until my class starts.
The first day of school, i was in the parking lot for about 25 minutes. ugh.
I haven't found a Gym i can go to yet.. and doubtfully will join any fitness clubs because of my financial situation. I'm surely going to loose all my muscles, and either get fat from eating too much ramen, or become a huge wimpy guy cuz i starve.
Unless.. i keep going to Grandma's House in LA, which is a restaurant open 24hr/day and serve Sul Lung Tang for just $2.99! and it comes with rice and other commodities.
Dang.. i'm getting pretty tired. I should go home and sleep. I guess i'll update the blog once more before my DSL comes in on the 12th. Until then..
Cheers!
I'm currently at a PC bang checking e-mail (i haven't checked in 4 days now), and updating this blog because i know so many ppl read it. Yah rite. I actually do this for myself, since you never know if your going to get amnesia and not remember about your past life. If that ever happens, i'll have something to read about and know more about how i lived my life in the past.
My DSL is still not here yet, i have been having a few problems with Verizon DSL because of my new phone line.
1. They can't test the phone line's compatability with DSL until it's been working for 5 business days - so that took a week.
2. It takes 5 business days for them to ship the modem.
So overall, it's going to take another freakin week to get myself on the internet from home. It's been about 2.1 weeks since i've been waiting.. i hate this game.
I'm at the PC bang, inside the "quiet room" but it's all a lie, because there are these rude ppl who keep talking on the cell phone. Shoot, i should freakin sing really loud and out voice them. HAHA (evil smile).
I got this new gel from a salon because "American Crew" gel hasn't been working as good these days. After testing out the gel that Pae has been using (Paul Mitchel sculpting gel) i just totally digged it. I can do so many things with my hair now. It also has a cool little pump so i can't have to open the lid everytime anymore.
I found a few roaches in my apartment when i first moved in, so i set little poisoned baits for them. I am pretty paranoid about bugs, like spiders, silverfish and roaches - i guess you can call it a phobia. For a while though, they were my only friends in the house, and in a way they helped me settle into my new studio. I actually wasn't sure what kind of roaches they were because at first i was told they were silver-fish; so i went on the net and found everything i could about silverfish.. but i was still skeptical about that because the insects weren't silver. bleh. So after a few hours of more research, i found out they were German Roaches. The hardest freakin house pests to kill from what i heard. But not too many worries anymore because i have so many tools to kill these little monsters..
The baits i setup for them should work pretty good, because roaches aren't like ants and they don't share food, they just eat them - go back home and die. And after they die, other roaches eat the dead ones - so in turn, they eat the poisoned roach and they die too.. and causes a domino effect. I haven't seen any roaches in my place for about a week now.. sweet! Knock on wood though..
Actually, they haven't bothered me too much because they only hang around the bathroom and near the sink.. they don't go near the bed, or even come out anymore (if they even exist) cuz they are scared of how i will torture them.
I have been at this PC bang for an hour now.. it's funny how time flies when you got so much to do.
Oh yes.. my cell phone bill came, and apparently i had to pay a One time fee of $20.. err.. WTF! It doesn't say what it's for.. and they didn't even tell me about it. Now i have to call 611 this Monday to clarify what the charge was for. But this is life huh? I will also be changing my number to a (562) area code on Monday.. so for the ppl who i have on my address book, i'll call you and let you know about my number change.
Oh yes, i just want to remind myself that if anyone asks me for a quote i will tell them.
"Life isn't complicated (hard), it's the people who make it complicated (hard)"
The quote itself sounds pretty simple, but it's pretty steep if you think about it for a while. If you were the only one alive right now, i'm pretty freakin sure life would be simple because you know nothing better.. you just live on as you please and do whatever you want. PG&E, Phone company, cell phone company, the government, school, family, and sometimes friends is what makes our lives so complex and unique and at the same time gives us stress.
Work has been a little tough.. i got my paycheck yesterday and it wasn't much because they aren't giving me enough hours. However, it's nice to know that the Cerritos BR was able to match my pay rate from Valley Fair.. wooho. This week starting on 9/8 i was only scheduled for 5 hours.. wth! I'm seriously considering a second job at the moment. From what i'm estimating right now, my monthly living expenses will be +/- $1000 including rent/gas/food etc. I would like to ask my parents for help, but they are pretty low on they cash flow because they just bought a house and the morgage sucks. I guess this is what i get for trying to live on my own.
I miss my sister, and pusha. I don't miss my father as much though.. probably because we were never that close. I rarely ever talk to him since i'm usually in my room, and his in his room, and i always ate outside. He doesn't talk to me much either.. i guess he doesn't like to lecture me like my mom. I still admire and respect him though, his one incredible man. As for my mom, i have been having mix emotions about it. I sorta miss her.. but at the same time i don't. Kinda complicated because part of the reason i moved out was to help her let go of me from her grasp. She's a bit of a control freak, and likes to be the boss of everything, and when things don't go her way it's hard for her.
Whenever i didn't do something she tells me to do, it would just give her stress - and i never liked seeing my mother sad, yet i wanted to live my life as i wanted to. I was tired of her nagging at me, and was tired of just seeing her pissed off for the dumbest reasons. Now that i'm not there, hopefully she can stop seeing all the little mistakes that i make and worry about them.
I also just found out that my mom didn't go to church during college.. something i never knew.. my aunt told me my mom is over protective because she doesn't want me to make the same mistakes she did as she was growing up - but isn't that what we all hear from our peers? However, my personality tells me that i have to venture out into this wicked life myself and learn from my own mistakes. How would I ever know what is wrong/right until I occured them for myself? If your mom told you that eating straberries was bad, and you believed her and never tried it.. wouldn't you regret it later in life since you would never know how a straberry tasted like? Yet if the straberry was something that was going to kill you later in life, you would still regret it - hence it goes both ways.
I'd just rather know and die, rather than not knowing at all.
Bronx's Junkyard is semi-up right now, the forums are in the testing phase. I'm pretty happy that I have Jet as a friend, because his been taking care of the site while i don't have internet. If it wasn't for him, the site would probably still be down. Even though, I think his progress for the forums, and other things are a bit slow - it's good to know his working hard in his free time.
I went to Le Prive the other nite.. it was pretty wack. There were so many ppl there that i only had 3 shots of crown and some Hite. Dancing sober sucks.
I have been hanging out with Simon a bit since he came back from Argentina, and that foo just seems to suprise me everyday with something new. His a really coo guy, and seems to be so cool-headed in every situation. He likes being the center of attention though - which seems to work both ways for me.
Gosh, my mind is blank right now, i can't think of what i've done in the past week. This is so sad.. i wish i could blog everyday so i can freakin remember.
I did get a few new things for my studio. A place to push the dishes and utensils, bottles for Soy Sauce and Oil.. and a little table where i can eat.
OH yea, and Pae bought me a fan as a House warming gift - thanks to him, i can sleep at night.
They are having a little carnival in front of my apartment which seems to be really cool - but i have nobody to go with.. what a bummer. Pae and I were supposed to go tonite, but they closed around 10pm, and Pae arrived at my place around 9:45pm.. ugh. And i'm pretty sure the carnival will be leaving tomorrow.. maybe i'll get lucky and they won't leave! yea rite.
Wow, this blog is getting pretty long. I have been writing on it for the past 45 minutes.
OH wait.. i forgot about the biggest thing last week. SCHOOL!
I finally went to my classes at CSULB.. and everything is pretty exciting.
1. They have a Student Union Center which has an Arcade, Bowling, Billards, and a place to just sit and watch TV. Actually there are a lot more things to do in campus - with a beauty salon and a swimming pool, computer lab, music room, and tons of places to just sit back and chill. But i haven't done half of those things yet.
2. My classes are pretty dumb and boring. My first class, i have a dumb teacher who mumbles so much.. "uh uh uh".. "ah ah ah".. geez.. and his supposed to get his masters for speech and communications? Apparently his also the Assistant Head of the Forensics League at CSULB.. i bet our school sucks at Speech & Debate cuz of him.
My second class is a joke aswell. It's a History of Oral Interpersonal Communication - and we learn about how the greeks, romans, etc. communicated.
The teacher keeps going off about how they aren't speakers, rather artists. Geezz.. i'm sure his one of those fags who thinks life is beautiful. His lectures suck too - remember the guy for the Clear Eyes commercial? - Sounds EXACTLY like him. I can't deal with the mono tone voice. So many kiss asses in my class too - whenever he cracks a joke (when it's not even funny) ppl laugh. Me, being the idiot that i am, laugh along so that i can get an "A". HAHA.
3. Parking is a bitch. Seriously, i have to go to school around 10am just so that i can find a decent spot. THen i have to chill for an hour in campus until my class starts.
The first day of school, i was in the parking lot for about 25 minutes. ugh.
I haven't found a Gym i can go to yet.. and doubtfully will join any fitness clubs because of my financial situation. I'm surely going to loose all my muscles, and either get fat from eating too much ramen, or become a huge wimpy guy cuz i starve.
Unless.. i keep going to Grandma's House in LA, which is a restaurant open 24hr/day and serve Sul Lung Tang for just $2.99! and it comes with rice and other commodities.
Dang.. i'm getting pretty tired. I should go home and sleep. I guess i'll update the blog once more before my DSL comes in on the 12th. Until then..
Cheers!
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