Korean Churches

Mom has been calling recently nagging me about going to Church.

Church is a funny issue to Koreans in general. There's a lot of "face" that is shown in that community. It's not all about having love for each other and worshiping God. It's more about who has the more status and who does more work. That basis also leads to who's a good groom and who isn't. They solely base it on how well a man or woman does in the congregation.

There's also the controversial version of a cult. They keep this little note card with how much Field Service preaching hours you occupy. If you don't preach for a certain amount of hours, you get put into a suspension mode where you are considered inactive. You can never see your own card.. only the elders keep it and pass it around.

I'm not sure about American churches, but Korean churches also have this gossip issue where they love talking trash about other ppl. It's like a disease that nobody can escape. Even if they aren't certain about an issue, they just spread it around like a side dish.

People say, "ooh you must have faith in God because the end is near.." "Even if you can't see him you should read the Bible and believe"..
Faith is bull shit. It's all in your head. You want to believe that something is there that can solve all of our problems because you want a simple solution. You don't believe in God because you have "faith"... you believe in him because you program your brain to think that God exists, and every word in the Bible is true.

About the Bible.. how do you trust a book? I'm one of those ppl who like seeing things in person to believe it or not. I don't get why God showed all these miracles to ancient ppl and then suddenly stopped. That's not fair.
We don't' know who wrote the Bible because it was ancient data collected in stones and what not.

So what we have here is.. you need to believe in a higher form of life that you have never seen before.. and you also have to read and live in the principles of a book that could have been written by a madman.

Many people interpret the Bible with current events and say, "ooh look.. it's a sign that the end is near".. BS. Ooh frequent earthquakes and famine.. it's a sign of the end according to Revelations. BS. There were plenty of earthquakes and famine through out History.

I'm not saying that Church is bad for everyone. The weaklings may need something to base faith upon to have the will to live. Some ppl just need something to believe.. because they are too afraid to think that the end of life is death.

What do I think?
1. Since i have no idea where this world came from.. there could be a higher being than us. But how do u explain where that thing came from? Maybe it's just beyond our comprehension.
2. Some of Church's concepts are good. Like morals, loving thy neighbor, etc.
3. Many Churches are corrupted. The congregation has been swayed from the meaning of going to church into a little cult that wants respect and power.
4. The end of human kind will be caused by humans themselves.

5. The most important thing is that we as humans have a conscious.. and it allows us to distinguish between good and bad. Killing someone is bad.. giving a present is good. As long as we follow our own morals and keep bad things to a minimum, you don't have to have faith in God.. you don't have to read the Bible.. just be a good citizen and enjoy life. We were obviously put in this planet to enjoy the life given to us.. not to mope and worship a God. If God wanted servants and worshipers, he would have programmed the way we functioned a lot differently so that we don't misbehave.

God will certainly see that you're a good person and judge you accordingly. His a God of love.. he aint gonna be killin u cuz u didn't read the Bible. Psh.

What a long read.. these are just sum of the things i have been thinking about for the past 2 years i've been living by myself and not going to Church.
My mom obviously wants me to go, because she doesn't want the finger being pointed at her by other members of the congregation.

"ooh.. her son doesn't go to church anymore.. ooh.. what a bad mother"..

She also wants me to believe in what she believes to be the truth. She has so much faith right now.. that nothing else can be said or told to her for her to think otherwise.

Damn.. another stupid thing to worry about. I should just call her and tell her i quit Church.