Song of the Day: 한기란 - 없구나

오늘도 다를것 없는 늘 같은 아침 햇살에
난 잠에서 깨어
언제나 처럼 뒤척이다가 일어나
그대로 멍하니 서있다
거울을 보다가 한참 바라보다가
그러다 문득 생각나는일
여긴 니가 없구나 우리 헤어졌구나
이제 너는 없구나

아직 까지 믿지 못해서
여태까지 잊지못해서
혹시라도 이게다 꿈이라서
아직꿈속인지도 모르니까
니가 없다는걸 믿게 될까봐
그럼너를 잊게 될까봐
그럼내가 살수가 없을 것 같아 그래

거리를 걷다가 한참 걸어가다가
그러다 문득 생각나는일
곁엔 니가없구나 우리헤어졌구나
이제 볼수없구나

아직까지 믿지 못해서
여태까지 잊지못해서
혹시 너도 너무 힘이 들어서
다시 돌아올지도 모르니까
니가 없다는걸 믿게될까봐
그럼너를 잊게 될까봐
그럼 더견딜수가 없을 것 같아

니가 없는 세상은 한번도
상상해 본적이 없는걸
너는 아는지
울고불고 때쓰면
다시 돌아올런지 아니면 니꿈에서
깨어날수 있을지

여긴 니가없구나
그래 너는 없구나
니안엔 내가 없구나
음 너는 없구나

어떤가요

Best Chest Workout: Chest Dips

에일리 - 여러분

대박. 더이상할말이없다.

나의 처음과 마지막

처음 예기 나눈 기역
처음 같이 커피 마신 날
처음 같이 봤던 영화
그녀와 같이 했던 처음들이 생각난다.

너를 처음 만난 추억
처음 여행간 추억
노리 공원 가고 만든 추억
너와 같이 있던 추억들이 이저지지 않는다

술 마시고 기분 좋왔던 시간
할게 없어서 서로 마줘봣던 시간
사랑했던 시간
참 빨리 지나가던 시간들

전화하다 잠든 너의 숨소리
너의 웃는 소리
너의 에교 소리
너의 목소리가 아직 들린다

마지막으로 같이 보낸 시간
마지막으로 전화한 시간
마지막으로 해어진 그날
그녀가 그리워진다

시간을 돌릴수 있다면
얼마나 후왜할걸 알았으면
어리고 바보라서
그때는 몰라따

Song of the Day: Weesung - 안되나요

우리는 안되는건가?

Song of the Day: Noel - What If

Happy 4th

Really awesome long weekend. Dinner with Eric, Pae, Janice, and Karis at a Thai restaurant. Followed by the golf range on Thursday. Korean bbq with Pae on Friday. Shopping @ The Block on Thursday with Eric and James. Drinks at Ddongo Pocha. Recuperation on Sunday. Now it's Monday and it's time to get back on track.

Diet Tip: Nutrition with Portion Control and Moderate Exercise = This

Song of the Day: Sleepy & Song Jieun - Cool Night

RIP 장군삼춘

My uncle passed away tonight. I got a call at 10pm from my aunt asking me if I could come over because uncle wasn't doing too well. She asked if I could help get him to the hospital. I rushed over, but his condition had gotten worse, so we decided to call 911. The fire department, sheriff officers, and medical team arrived in about 5 minutes and tried to resuscitate him but he was gone. He passed away from pancreatic cancer stage 4 which had spread to his liver and kidneys.

RIP Uncle.

This was the first time in my life I saw someone die in front of my eyes, and to say the least it's a traumatic experience. You really can't describe it in words, nor will anyone unfamiliar with this experience understand the emotions that someone goes through in this situation. After the shock is gone though, the dead body appears to be someone sleeping. I can sorta understand now why soldiers go into PTSD.

Post 60 Day Diet Results

Forgot to post this on June 1st. Total weight loss was 25lbs, however this does not include the added muscle mass. I think i'm at about 12% body fat right now. Current weight is 185lbs and I haven't felt this good since 2011. Back then (2011) i was slim at 175lbs, but i had no muscle mass. I just looked skinny with no definition. This time around I may be 10lbs heavier, but have broader shoulders and a decent 4 pack.

Next phase will be to go down to my ideal goal of 170-175lbs. Optimal weight for a totally cut 5'11 tall person is 175, but that's for people going into body building competitions. I think at 170 I will get the washboard abs i was aiming for. I haven't felt this good in a very long time. Once i reach my 170 goal, it will probably have been over 15 years since i've been in this shape.

Losing weight at this stage gets really hard. Some people peak out and strain to lose the last 10-15lbs. It may take a while, but I will have to press forward. Based on my spreadsheet calculator I created on Excel it's going to take another 45 days. I hope to post more photos then.

Full Article RE: Comprehensive Guide to Losing Weight

Took a while to write, but got it done. Still has typos and there are some areas i'd like the elaborate on. Guess we can call this draft 1.

Click me to read.

Beachbody Insanity Workouts

Man, I'm sick of going through these yo-yo diets. I keep going up and down like Chandler on Friends. But through this journey I've learned a lot about living a healthy lifestyle with hundreds of hours of reading, researching, and self experiments. It's interesting when you find out what you've been doing correctly / incorrectly in the past and ways to improve the methods. This time is for real, once I get back to the physical goal I've set for myself - it's time to not yo-yo back up.

April 1st, I've started on the Beachbody Insanity work outs with Shaun T. Along with a healthy diet of mostly protein and fruits - the next 60 days will be tough. I am drenched in sweat after the workouts and can safely say there are some minor results already. The huge article I've been writing about the secrets to loosing weight will be posted up soon. Possibly after the 60 days.

People to Avoid like the Plague

If only I could go back 10 years with all the knowledge I have now. I dream about it, and it's always a fascinating dream. My parents used to tell me that the people I surround myself with will eventually mold my life. I had some time to reflect these past few months and realized a few things.

1. Be careful of sociopaths. People that only care about themselves. Particularly the ones that use others for their own benefits. The ones that only call you when they need something or a favor. This list also includes inconsiderate bastards. The ones that block a path when you are trying to get through without a care in the world. Or, drive 55mph on the highway on the carpool lane when there are 100 cars tailgating behind you.

2. Some people need to earn your trust before they ever break it. Don't trust anyone you first meet. I used to think giving people the benefit of the doubt when you first meet them was the right thing to do. However, that's not right. There are too many bad spirited people in this world, particularly as of late. There needs to be red lights and signs that say "CAUTION". Let them show you that they are trustworthy. This will shield you from opening up yourself to someone that will eventually hurt you. Don't always be the "NICE GUY", people will notice it and try to take advantage. Be smart about it and make decisions wisely.

3. People that talk big. Most of these people (i'd say 90% of them) can't back it up. It's okay to talk big if you can show for it. I've met very few people in my life that can actually live up to what they portray themselves as being. Cocky people are NOT confident people. It's just a bad form of arrogance. Surround yourself with humble yet confident people.

4. People that make promises too often, or always breaking promises. They don't have any type of commitment or acknowledge their responsiblity. Or simply don't give a shit about you to keep their promises. Keep away from these types of people.

5. People that make excuses all the fucking time. If someone is late because they actually got a flat tire and couldn't make a meeting, that's an acceptable excuse. But if they start blaming everything, THEY fucked up on - on/to someone else/thing - that's just an immature child that spends half their day thinking of excuses to get out of doing homework. These people are not trustworthy.

Take out these types of people and surround yourself with people with positive energy. I've been watching The Dog Whisperer with Caesar Milan on YouTube. In the episodes he points out that dogs are able to read people's energy and react accordingly. I actually believe in this. If dogs can pick up on energy signs, then I believe people do it as well in a more discreet subconscious way. People that are always gloomy and think of the world as coming to an end will just have a very negative vibe. This will rub off on you and make you gloomy as well. Be around people with a ray of brightness and suddenly your day will be more joyful. I can think of one girl I met a few years back that had such aura. Just being in a room with her would brighten up your day, and one smile just lifts up your spirits. It wasn't even because I liked her as a woman, it was just her presence. It's hard to describe, and you won't know it until you've met someone like that yourself.

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